Summer's here! Who's happy? *raises hand*
As usual, it's been several months since I last posted on this blog. I had so much to do both in school and out of it so I just didn't even think about it, honestly.
Anyways, I'm here today with something to say. I have to be out in about half an hour so I'll try to condensate everything in the smallest space.
Summer has come. Summer is usually the time of changes. Especially when you're in school. You don't see your schoolmates for three whole months (or two, depending where you from), and you have time to reinvent yourself or at least to start doing that. It's the right period to change your hair, go abroad, make new acquaintances, lose weight, gain weigh.. in short, it's the right period of the year to choose a new you and to work on the project, so that when you come back to school or work or whatever you can kind of start anew.
That's why I love summer. And also, you get to sleep more, get tanned, go out at night and have fun, which hey, who doesn't like that? (Sociopaths).
Anyways. I'm one of those people who changes here. Well actually, I'm not used to change hair every single summer, but this one I did. And I'm happy about it! I also have a lot of projects. Okay, a lot of them failed miserably but hey, what did I say about the three months? We've got time. And we can make new projects if the first ones failed.
To be precise, I originally had to go to London with a friend of mine, and spend the whole summer there. Then she got in a fight with her mother and poof! Summer gone, she had to stay here. So that was a major letdown. HOWEVER, I get to go to SRI FUCKING LANKA IN AUGUST! Yeeeesss. You heard that right. You don't even know where Sri Lanka is though, do you? It's a small island south of India, more or less. And I'm obsessed with Eastern Asia, in case you didn't know, so HURRAY!
Anyways, as you can see, there's always something you can do even if your original plans didn't go the way you wanted them to.
But what the heck is she trying to get to, you might be wondering. Well, what I'm telling you is that summer is finally here, so START MOVING! Don't wait around, don't waste time, God knows time is the most precious thing we have, so stop wishing and start doing. If there's something you've always been afraid to do, do it now. It's time. It's time for you to do it, and if you're no good at it, you can IMPROVE. You have three months to improve. Summer is the time of the year when we're-metaphorically speaking-invincible, so come on! I too have some struggles and challenges for this summer, and I'm going to work for them. So you should too! Make new friends. Go out. Celebrate. Get drunk, yes. Do whatever you want and remember that it's time. It's time for you to start acting so LET'S. DO. IT!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Happy Easter! (+ random weird accidental potential life lesson)
Helloooooooooooooo readers. :)
What's going on in your lives? Are you happy? Aren't you? Tell me about it.
And happy Easter!!
Don't know if you're religious or not, don't even care, happy Easter anyway. Sooo... I've been absent for almost two months from this blog. I'm such a terrible blogger, I know. The second-to-last post I wrote was dated November, and the last one February. Aaah. I just can't keep up with blog rhythms. But I'm trying. Because, you know, I like writing and talking to people and mastering the beautiful and marvellous art that is communication.
(no wonder I study languages)
Did I tell you? (of course I didn't) I went to England! Like, one week ago. Not to London, though. I went to a little cute town called Chester near Liverpool. It was a school trip so we stayed in a host family for a week and all in all it was a pretty cool experience. My family was a bit crazy but I liked them.
I fell in love with England even more than before, if that's even possible. I so want to go back there. And it's sad, because as things stand right now I don't have any trip abroad to look forward to in the near present. The next sure one is going to be in winter (my last high school trip :'( sigh, I'm getting old), so that's pretty far in the future. (for me, at least)
So yeah, I don't know what to do with my life in this period. I'm bored, and in need of a serious change. I'm trying to perfectionate myself, in the meantime. I read this book called 'Rules of Life', which you may find stupid and even useless, but to me it was helpful. Not gonna lie, and I'm not even trying to brag, but most of the things the book suggested to do, I already was doing, so I'm pretty happy on that side. (like, respect other people, don't ever do something you would never want to be done to yourself, try to always stay positive.. crap like that) But it also said things that I wasn't doing and that made me realize maybe I should try them out. Like, if on one side society tells us we need to be perfect, on another they're screaming at us that esteriority is not important. That how you're inside is what matters. So I've got my head divided in two and I don't know what to do.
But this book actually helped me, because it wasn't talking about society but it was talking about me. And it was talking about self-respect, and this glorious book told me that not for other people but for myself, when I get up in the morning I should think that this is a brand new day and I can do anything I want to, and that I should dress nice for it. I should take care of myself, of my face, my body, and yes, even my clothes. Because it's myself we're talking about, it's my body I have to take care of so I should always try to look as best as I can. You get it? Not for other people, but for myself. It's one of the basic rules for achievement. We can't be perfect, we all know we can't, but where's the fault in doing as best as we can?
So that's what the book said. I don't know if I made myself clear, I hope so. In any case, if you want to you can check it out and it's called The Rules of Life by Richard Templar. Now I don't honestly know who this dude is, so he could be a giant idiot known all over the world except for Italy for all I know, but what I know is that if you ignore the whole perhaps-he's-an-idiot-perhaps-he's-not factor, this book can really help you. Maybe you won't agree with every single advice in it, but you can still take something useful out of it. There's always room for improvement, and even in the most idiotic thing or person there's something you can learn, so don't forget that.
But why was I talking about Richard Templar? Oh yeah, I'm trying to improve my life. So I'm reading a lot again (I had this period recently where I could only concentrate on my feelings and didn't feel the need to read. I believe I was fancied myself in love, what an idiot), and I'm even trying to put make-up decently on my face (JK. I already did that. I like make-up. Lots of people say it's just fake, but to me it's a kind of form of art, but on the face instead of on paper or canvas or walls or whatever, which actually makes it all the more special. And also, make-up is not fake. It enhances beauty. And if you use good products, it also helps your skin and your face which is good) and I'm paying a bit more attention to what I wear. And you know what? It's FUN. I don't get why people find it stressful to dress nicely and have a decent make-up. I find myself quite at ease standing in front of my wardrobe and trying new outfits. It's relaxing. And it's nice when you look at yourself in the mirror and you go 'hey, you look nice today', instead of 'oh god another day of work/school/shit/whatever' so why not try it?
So yes, improving is good. And even aiming at perfection is good. God knows you're never gonna achieve it, and you should in your heart know it too, but you can get as close as you can to it. It's kind of like with grades at school. If you point at a B, which is fair enough, you could get a C+, or a B- (or even a B if you're really good), but if you aim at A++++, it doesn't matter that it doesn't exist as a grade, you'll still get an A or an A+ which is as good as you can get in this freaking world and THAT'S good. Again, I don't know if I made myself clear but I hope so because I'm trying to tell you something important here.
So you get what I mean? You don't need to be perfect, but AIM at perfection. And aim at it positively, with a good spirit, not with the feeling that you won't be okay until you achieve it because otherwise you'll just be disappointed. Try to be as best as you can, and don't listen to people who try to bring you down and just follow your own lead. Be yourself, and be free and be awesome you know?
Aaand why did this post turn into this witty philosophical whatever speech? I really didn't mean to end up trying to give the cyber world a lesson. God knows we all hate those.
But.. I hope I helped you somehow. Because I like helping people (see? Rules of Life. Thoough I guess we all already know helping each other is good) and people are cool and.. yeah.
Let me know what you think!
Just.. tell me what you feel. If you want to. Or comment on the book, if you've read it. Insult Richard, if you want. (no, wait, don't. it's BAD) But tell me if you do know who he is!
Aaaand.. I guess that's it for today.
Thanks for readin! ;)
What's going on in your lives? Are you happy? Aren't you? Tell me about it.
And happy Easter!!
Don't know if you're religious or not, don't even care, happy Easter anyway. Sooo... I've been absent for almost two months from this blog. I'm such a terrible blogger, I know. The second-to-last post I wrote was dated November, and the last one February. Aaah. I just can't keep up with blog rhythms. But I'm trying. Because, you know, I like writing and talking to people and mastering the beautiful and marvellous art that is communication.
(no wonder I study languages)
Did I tell you? (of course I didn't) I went to England! Like, one week ago. Not to London, though. I went to a little cute town called Chester near Liverpool. It was a school trip so we stayed in a host family for a week and all in all it was a pretty cool experience. My family was a bit crazy but I liked them.
I fell in love with England even more than before, if that's even possible. I so want to go back there. And it's sad, because as things stand right now I don't have any trip abroad to look forward to in the near present. The next sure one is going to be in winter (my last high school trip :'( sigh, I'm getting old), so that's pretty far in the future. (for me, at least)
So yeah, I don't know what to do with my life in this period. I'm bored, and in need of a serious change. I'm trying to perfectionate myself, in the meantime. I read this book called 'Rules of Life', which you may find stupid and even useless, but to me it was helpful. Not gonna lie, and I'm not even trying to brag, but most of the things the book suggested to do, I already was doing, so I'm pretty happy on that side. (like, respect other people, don't ever do something you would never want to be done to yourself, try to always stay positive.. crap like that) But it also said things that I wasn't doing and that made me realize maybe I should try them out. Like, if on one side society tells us we need to be perfect, on another they're screaming at us that esteriority is not important. That how you're inside is what matters. So I've got my head divided in two and I don't know what to do.
But this book actually helped me, because it wasn't talking about society but it was talking about me. And it was talking about self-respect, and this glorious book told me that not for other people but for myself, when I get up in the morning I should think that this is a brand new day and I can do anything I want to, and that I should dress nice for it. I should take care of myself, of my face, my body, and yes, even my clothes. Because it's myself we're talking about, it's my body I have to take care of so I should always try to look as best as I can. You get it? Not for other people, but for myself. It's one of the basic rules for achievement. We can't be perfect, we all know we can't, but where's the fault in doing as best as we can?
So that's what the book said. I don't know if I made myself clear, I hope so. In any case, if you want to you can check it out and it's called The Rules of Life by Richard Templar. Now I don't honestly know who this dude is, so he could be a giant idiot known all over the world except for Italy for all I know, but what I know is that if you ignore the whole perhaps-he's-an-idiot-perhaps-he's-not factor, this book can really help you. Maybe you won't agree with every single advice in it, but you can still take something useful out of it. There's always room for improvement, and even in the most idiotic thing or person there's something you can learn, so don't forget that.
But why was I talking about Richard Templar? Oh yeah, I'm trying to improve my life. So I'm reading a lot again (I had this period recently where I could only concentrate on my feelings and didn't feel the need to read. I believe I was fancied myself in love, what an idiot), and I'm even trying to put make-up decently on my face (JK. I already did that. I like make-up. Lots of people say it's just fake, but to me it's a kind of form of art, but on the face instead of on paper or canvas or walls or whatever, which actually makes it all the more special. And also, make-up is not fake. It enhances beauty. And if you use good products, it also helps your skin and your face which is good) and I'm paying a bit more attention to what I wear. And you know what? It's FUN. I don't get why people find it stressful to dress nicely and have a decent make-up. I find myself quite at ease standing in front of my wardrobe and trying new outfits. It's relaxing. And it's nice when you look at yourself in the mirror and you go 'hey, you look nice today', instead of 'oh god another day of work/school/shit/whatever' so why not try it?
So yes, improving is good. And even aiming at perfection is good. God knows you're never gonna achieve it, and you should in your heart know it too, but you can get as close as you can to it. It's kind of like with grades at school. If you point at a B, which is fair enough, you could get a C+, or a B- (or even a B if you're really good), but if you aim at A++++, it doesn't matter that it doesn't exist as a grade, you'll still get an A or an A+ which is as good as you can get in this freaking world and THAT'S good. Again, I don't know if I made myself clear but I hope so because I'm trying to tell you something important here.
So you get what I mean? You don't need to be perfect, but AIM at perfection. And aim at it positively, with a good spirit, not with the feeling that you won't be okay until you achieve it because otherwise you'll just be disappointed. Try to be as best as you can, and don't listen to people who try to bring you down and just follow your own lead. Be yourself, and be free and be awesome you know?
Aaand why did this post turn into this witty philosophical whatever speech? I really didn't mean to end up trying to give the cyber world a lesson. God knows we all hate those.
But.. I hope I helped you somehow. Because I like helping people (see? Rules of Life. Thoough I guess we all already know helping each other is good) and people are cool and.. yeah.
Let me know what you think!
Just.. tell me what you feel. If you want to. Or comment on the book, if you've read it. Insult Richard, if you want. (no, wait, don't. it's BAD) But tell me if you do know who he is!
Aaaand.. I guess that's it for today.
Thanks for readin! ;)
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Personal beliefs (list of 'cruelty-free' cosmetics brands)
Hiiii! Wow, I haven't posted since November on this blog. Shame on me! I'm so sorry guys. Life's tough, you know.
So. Today I would like to talk about animals. That is, their treatment and their sufferings.
You may not know, but I'm a vegetarian. Or at least I'd like to call myself that. Actually, my parents are set against this 'diet' of mine, so they'll do anything in their power to object. Like not making me leave the table until I eat one freaking piece of meat. (which I don't, most of the time. Usually the things ends in an argument and me slamming my door)
But anyways. I started last year (March, if I recall correctly), but I haven't been a proper vegetarian. Between my parents, and me switching from one opinion to another, there were times in which I didn't eat meat (or fish) and other when I did. I officially decided a few months ago and I'm trying to stick to it. Yes, sometimes (although rarely) I do eat meat/fish, but that's because my mother obliges me. I believe vegetarianism is more of a let's call it philosophy. So I stick to those values and I totally agree with them. But sometimes if I really have to eat then I won't be like 'oh, the horror!'. I'll just eat the damn thing.
That has happened like, two times in six months, so it's not that bad, but still. I was just pointing that out.
So that's how I see it. I really don't like the idea of having animals killed to feed me. There are so many other things in nature that I can eat without anyone dying.
But anyways, with this post I'm not trying to convert you or anything. I'm just pointing out how I see it. Then eveybody gets to have their own opinion on the matter.
So, why did I start talking about animals today then? Because. I'm all like 'killing animals is wrong', 'we should respect them' and stuff, but do I really do that?
Food is not the only aspect in which animals are cruelly treated. I'm talking about cosmetics. There certainly are a lot more things to talk about, but that's my topic for today.
I mean it doesn't make sense that I act like a vegetarian if then I'm gonna use products tested on animals. Even my mother agrees on this fact. So today I'll be writing down for you guys a list of 'cruelty free' and not-cruelty-free cosmetics brands, so you can decide what you wanna do.
It's hard to find cruelty-free brands because until not long ago (and it's still up in the US and Japan, I believe) it was actually law that products should be tested on animals first, for safety measures.
Now in Europe, as far as I know, a finished product cannot be tested on animals. But there's a loophole there, because the single components can still be tested on animals and then you just put the whole thing together and say it's not tested. But the ingredients are. So there you go. Don't trust the 'not tested on animals' signs on products because that just means the FINISHED product wasn't tested. But the ingredients might (highly probable) have been tested.
I've been looking for a complete and correct list of all the cruelty-free cosmetics brands in circulation, but on every website I visited I found different information (like on one website someone would say a product was cruelty-free and on another one they said the contrary) so I thought I'd post for you a sort of 'medium' for all those. The brands that I found in most websites, so I'm pretty sure (at least I hope) the info is correct.
Here's the lists:
(note: if you have any suggestions to make, like a brand is actually cruelty-free or another one is not, just tell me so I can update the list!)
Cruelty-free:
Those who do test on animals:
[you can find more at: http://www.peta.org/]
(note: Body Shop is part of L'Oreal but sells cruelty-free products. In fact, a fuss was made when L'Oreàl bought The Body Shop, since L'Oreal tests and TBS does not. So you can buy BS products, but you're giving money to L'Oreal!)
Again, if you know of other brands who do test on animals, or don't, please tell me so I can upload the list.
Now that you're aware of who respects animals and who doesn't go do some shopping! The choice is up to you.
So. Today I would like to talk about animals. That is, their treatment and their sufferings.
You may not know, but I'm a vegetarian. Or at least I'd like to call myself that. Actually, my parents are set against this 'diet' of mine, so they'll do anything in their power to object. Like not making me leave the table until I eat one freaking piece of meat. (which I don't, most of the time. Usually the things ends in an argument and me slamming my door)
But anyways. I started last year (March, if I recall correctly), but I haven't been a proper vegetarian. Between my parents, and me switching from one opinion to another, there were times in which I didn't eat meat (or fish) and other when I did. I officially decided a few months ago and I'm trying to stick to it. Yes, sometimes (although rarely) I do eat meat/fish, but that's because my mother obliges me. I believe vegetarianism is more of a let's call it philosophy. So I stick to those values and I totally agree with them. But sometimes if I really have to eat then I won't be like 'oh, the horror!'. I'll just eat the damn thing.
That has happened like, two times in six months, so it's not that bad, but still. I was just pointing that out.
So that's how I see it. I really don't like the idea of having animals killed to feed me. There are so many other things in nature that I can eat without anyone dying.
But anyways, with this post I'm not trying to convert you or anything. I'm just pointing out how I see it. Then eveybody gets to have their own opinion on the matter.
So, why did I start talking about animals today then? Because. I'm all like 'killing animals is wrong', 'we should respect them' and stuff, but do I really do that?
Food is not the only aspect in which animals are cruelly treated. I'm talking about cosmetics. There certainly are a lot more things to talk about, but that's my topic for today.
I mean it doesn't make sense that I act like a vegetarian if then I'm gonna use products tested on animals. Even my mother agrees on this fact. So today I'll be writing down for you guys a list of 'cruelty free' and not-cruelty-free cosmetics brands, so you can decide what you wanna do.
It's hard to find cruelty-free brands because until not long ago (and it's still up in the US and Japan, I believe) it was actually law that products should be tested on animals first, for safety measures.
Now in Europe, as far as I know, a finished product cannot be tested on animals. But there's a loophole there, because the single components can still be tested on animals and then you just put the whole thing together and say it's not tested. But the ingredients are. So there you go. Don't trust the 'not tested on animals' signs on products because that just means the FINISHED product wasn't tested. But the ingredients might (highly probable) have been tested.
I've been looking for a complete and correct list of all the cruelty-free cosmetics brands in circulation, but on every website I visited I found different information (like on one website someone would say a product was cruelty-free and on another one they said the contrary) so I thought I'd post for you a sort of 'medium' for all those. The brands that I found in most websites, so I'm pretty sure (at least I hope) the info is correct.
Here's the lists:
(note: if you have any suggestions to make, like a brand is actually cruelty-free or another one is not, just tell me so I can update the list!)
Cruelty-free:
- Afterglow CosmeticsAvon Cosmetics
- Barry M Cosmetics
- Clarins of Paris
- D'aymons Naturalerbe Derbe (Regenè, Speziali Fiorentini, Seres)
- Dr Taffi
- e.l.f.
- Essence
- Estée Lauder
- Evan Bartholomew
- Fitocose
- Flora-Primavera
- Gosh Cosmetics
- Hawai (Hawai, Oris, Anthyllis)
- Helan Indica (vegan)
- I Serafini
- Kiko
- L'amande/Gavarry
- L'Erbolario
- L'Occitane
- LUSH Cosmetics
- M.A.C. Cosmetics
- Montagne Jeunesse
- nyx
- Officina Naturae Pedrini (Lepo Line)
- OPI Products
- Pure luxe
- Rebis
- Remedia
- Revlon
- The Body Bakery
- Too Faced
- Urban Decay
- Victoria's Secret
- Yes to Carrots
- Yves Rocher
Those who do test on animals:
- Aussie
- Aveeno
- Chanel
- Clairol
- Colgate
- Cover Girl
- Dior
- Dolce & Gabbana
- Dove
- Garnier
- Givenchy
- Gucci
- Helena Rubenstein
- Herbal Essences
- Hugo Boss (perfumes)
- Infasil
- Johnson & Johnson
- Lancome
- L'Oréal (Garnier, Maybelline, Vichy, Biotherm, Cacharel, Giorgio Armani, Helena Rubinstein, Lancôme, Matrix Essentials, Ralph Lauren Fragrances, Redken, Soft Sheen)
- Yves Saint Laurent
- Max Factor
- Olay
- Oral B
- PanteneInfasil
- Procter & Gamble
- Rimmel London
- Oil of Olaz
- Sunsilk Dove
- Sally Hansen
- Valentino (perfumes)
[you can find more at: http://www.peta.org/]
(note: Body Shop is part of L'Oreal but sells cruelty-free products. In fact, a fuss was made when L'Oreàl bought The Body Shop, since L'Oreal tests and TBS does not. So you can buy BS products, but you're giving money to L'Oreal!)
Again, if you know of other brands who do test on animals, or don't, please tell me so I can upload the list.
Now that you're aware of who respects animals and who doesn't go do some shopping! The choice is up to you.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Can't you let me breathe?
I am seventeen years old.
I am closer to adulthood than childhood. I should be able to make my own decisions.
And yet I can't.
I'll be going to University in a year, I have to decide what to do with my life. I should be responsible and I should be able to manage a freaking agenda.
And yet I can't. There's someone (not gonna mention who, but it's pretty clear) that's always breathing on my neck. Someone that's always reminding me to do things that I KNOW I should be doing. Someone who tries to control my life because they think I'm not able to. But if they fucking gave me a chance! It's no surprise that I can't be responsible. No one gives me the chance. They just assume I can't.
Someone is always there telling me what to do and I have no. space. to think, to make my own decisions. And it's so tiring.
It's like trying to move but being stuck in a box. You can't breathe, and you just want to stand up and start running but YOU. CAN'T.
It feels awful. I've always had this thing, when I couldn't move I'd hyper-ventilate. Like, if I was at the beach, in the water, and someone grabbed me from behind or something and put their arms around me, and I couldn't move, I'd hyperventilate. I'd start to get anxious and stuff. Nothing serious, of course, but it was still stressing. I usually say I'm 'claustrophoic', even though I don't think I actually am and I don't want to disrepect in any way those who really suffer from that, but I think it's the word that best fits me.
Having walls around me, not being able to move.. it's what terrifies me the most. Even when I was little, my greatest fear was being stuck in an elevator, because I had no possibility to get out.
I was stuck.
So yeah. I just wish, hope, pray, WANT more space. for me, for my thoughts, to fucking get a grip on my life and decide for myself. I want to grow up, and be responsible, and independent.
Will I be able to do that?
I am closer to adulthood than childhood. I should be able to make my own decisions.
And yet I can't.
I'll be going to University in a year, I have to decide what to do with my life. I should be responsible and I should be able to manage a freaking agenda.
And yet I can't. There's someone (not gonna mention who, but it's pretty clear) that's always breathing on my neck. Someone that's always reminding me to do things that I KNOW I should be doing. Someone who tries to control my life because they think I'm not able to. But if they fucking gave me a chance! It's no surprise that I can't be responsible. No one gives me the chance. They just assume I can't.
Someone is always there telling me what to do and I have no. space. to think, to make my own decisions. And it's so tiring.
It's like trying to move but being stuck in a box. You can't breathe, and you just want to stand up and start running but YOU. CAN'T.
It feels awful. I've always had this thing, when I couldn't move I'd hyper-ventilate. Like, if I was at the beach, in the water, and someone grabbed me from behind or something and put their arms around me, and I couldn't move, I'd hyperventilate. I'd start to get anxious and stuff. Nothing serious, of course, but it was still stressing. I usually say I'm 'claustrophoic', even though I don't think I actually am and I don't want to disrepect in any way those who really suffer from that, but I think it's the word that best fits me.
Having walls around me, not being able to move.. it's what terrifies me the most. Even when I was little, my greatest fear was being stuck in an elevator, because I had no possibility to get out.
I was stuck.
So yeah. I just wish, hope, pray, WANT more space. for me, for my thoughts, to fucking get a grip on my life and decide for myself. I want to grow up, and be responsible, and independent.
Will I be able to do that?
Monday, November 5, 2012
Pissed
I am pissed.
I generally don't write things this bluntly, I just kind of circle the main point but never actually say it out loud.
I'm making an exception now, though. I won't tell you the reason.
I'm just going to say that one cannot keep being used and kid around like you're worth nothing.
People can't just keep treating you like you're trash because they know you'll always be there anyway. It doesn't work like that. Nuh uh. You can be as nice and cute as you want, but at some point you just need so say 'stop.'
Stop with the bullshit, stop with this behavior, stop with YOU.
You're sick and tired of being treated like that. Maybe people don't deserve you. And you're the one who gets hurt because you always care so much about people, maybe more than they do about you. And even when things change you can't and won't and don't want to stop caring about them, because it makes you feel good and it is good.
But it's time to put a fucking stop to that.
It's time.
Walk alone, if you have to, but don't fucking let others treat you like your worth no one's attention. Because you are. You fucking are.
Don't forget that.
If people don't deserve you, all the better. One less person to care about, free place for one more. One that really deserves you.
Even if you're wrong, they're wrong, too. That's not how you behave. You talk. You don't ignore.
I understand that none of you is really getting what I'm saying, and I'm sorry about that. I just needed to vent my anger on someone or something and so yeah, here's my pissed post. ;)
I generally don't write things this bluntly, I just kind of circle the main point but never actually say it out loud.
I'm making an exception now, though. I won't tell you the reason.
I'm just going to say that one cannot keep being used and kid around like you're worth nothing.
People can't just keep treating you like you're trash because they know you'll always be there anyway. It doesn't work like that. Nuh uh. You can be as nice and cute as you want, but at some point you just need so say 'stop.'
Stop with the bullshit, stop with this behavior, stop with YOU.
You're sick and tired of being treated like that. Maybe people don't deserve you. And you're the one who gets hurt because you always care so much about people, maybe more than they do about you. And even when things change you can't and won't and don't want to stop caring about them, because it makes you feel good and it is good.
But it's time to put a fucking stop to that.
It's time.
Walk alone, if you have to, but don't fucking let others treat you like your worth no one's attention. Because you are. You fucking are.
Don't forget that.
If people don't deserve you, all the better. One less person to care about, free place for one more. One that really deserves you.
Even if you're wrong, they're wrong, too. That's not how you behave. You talk. You don't ignore.
I understand that none of you is really getting what I'm saying, and I'm sorry about that. I just needed to vent my anger on someone or something and so yeah, here's my pissed post. ;)
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Being a fan. What is that?
Nowadays a lot of artists are coming up and a lot of different fan bases are holding their grounds. Or so people say.
But what is really a fan?
What makes you call other people fans, and what makes you consider yourself a fan of someone?
Tons of people are convinced that to be a fan you have to know basically everything concering your designated favorite artists/s, coming down to even the littlest detail.
They even inform that you're not a fan if you don't know every single fact about said artist/s.
They are basically socially-accepted stalkers.
What is your opinion on that?
I personally think they're exaggerating a bit (okay, a lot). I've known a lot of people who looked you up and down when you told them you liked some particular band, like you were not worthy of liking them. You know, like those dudes who make fun of you because you say you like Metallica but then you don't go out all dressed in black and chains. As if you were the one who had the problem. (not saying you guys who dress like that have something wrong with you! I used to dress like that a few years ago. But I just didn't go out and give the stink eye to any people who happened to listen to metal like me but dressed 'normally')
And that is so ridiculous, let me tell you. The way music is becoming no more than a fashion statement, these days. That's what music is about? Having the right clothes? Music used to teach us appearances didn't matter, what you had inside mattered. What you had to say mattered. But I guess those times have passed?
But, back to the point.
I don't think you necessarily have to know by heart these artists' discography to consider yourself a fan. It can happen, sometimes, that you listen to a couple of things by a particular singer, or a particular band, and in a way you get them. You feel a connection. And then you don't need to know every basic detail of their life, because you appreciate them just as they come. From those few songs you kind of got to know them, you understood them, you understood what they were about and you realized they really deserved your liking.
Sometimes you just need a few right thoughts to make you realize if a person is worth knowing or not.
And same goes for singers, bands, or even painters, writers, whatever.
Here I talked about music but these ideas can be extended to every artistic camp. I'll always see it the same way.
So how do you call someone a fan? What makes you decide you are one? I'd really like to know.
Thanks for reading!
Elena
But what is really a fan?
What makes you call other people fans, and what makes you consider yourself a fan of someone?
Tons of people are convinced that to be a fan you have to know basically everything concering your designated favorite artists/s, coming down to even the littlest detail.
They even inform that you're not a fan if you don't know every single fact about said artist/s.
They are basically socially-accepted stalkers.
What is your opinion on that?
I personally think they're exaggerating a bit (okay, a lot). I've known a lot of people who looked you up and down when you told them you liked some particular band, like you were not worthy of liking them. You know, like those dudes who make fun of you because you say you like Metallica but then you don't go out all dressed in black and chains. As if you were the one who had the problem. (not saying you guys who dress like that have something wrong with you! I used to dress like that a few years ago. But I just didn't go out and give the stink eye to any people who happened to listen to metal like me but dressed 'normally')
And that is so ridiculous, let me tell you. The way music is becoming no more than a fashion statement, these days. That's what music is about? Having the right clothes? Music used to teach us appearances didn't matter, what you had inside mattered. What you had to say mattered. But I guess those times have passed?
But, back to the point.
I don't think you necessarily have to know by heart these artists' discography to consider yourself a fan. It can happen, sometimes, that you listen to a couple of things by a particular singer, or a particular band, and in a way you get them. You feel a connection. And then you don't need to know every basic detail of their life, because you appreciate them just as they come. From those few songs you kind of got to know them, you understood them, you understood what they were about and you realized they really deserved your liking.
Sometimes you just need a few right thoughts to make you realize if a person is worth knowing or not.
And same goes for singers, bands, or even painters, writers, whatever.
Here I talked about music but these ideas can be extended to every artistic camp. I'll always see it the same way.
So how do you call someone a fan? What makes you decide you are one? I'd really like to know.
Thanks for reading!
Elena
Monday, October 8, 2012
What is love?
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly.
Loving him was red.
Today, people, I'm going to present to you a question whose answer will seem obvious at first, but for me it's not:
What is love?
What is this emotion everyone is talking about? This feeling people claim to feel, what exactly makes some call it 'true love'? What is it that makes that one love more special than the others?
I recently heard this song from Taylor Swift, called Red.
Now one thing I like about this girl is that she always talks about love, but somehow each one her songs is completely different from any other. And that is what happens with this song.
Describing feelings through colors? Now that's smart.
Taylor is talking about a love that knew no bounds. A love that came out of the blue and took complete power over her. A feeling so strong that she couldn't control it, and everything felt so good and so right that she just couldn't let go of it.
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall.
So what is really love? When I think of love, that epic one that people talk about that is supposedly going to change your life, all I see is red. Taylor caught perfectly my feelings about it. Passionate, with no limits, a neverending fall that makes you feel so good.
I think there are different types of love. So are we talking about the 'big love', or all kinds of it?
I am a pacifist myself, so I always tend to say that "I love the whole world." And I do. I really do.
I love everything single thing about the world, because I think even the bad things (which are only bad under certain aspects) can be redeemed and become good. Nothing is ever lost.
So there is this 'universal love', that makes life better because everything feels to be going the right way even when it doesn't look like it.
Then there's the love that you feel towards the people you, indeed, love. The people that you care about. I think you can love a lot of people in your life. That kind of emotion that makes you worry about them, makes you want to be there for them whenever they need it.
But the big love, the life-changing one, is more than that. I think you FEEL it when it's right. I think it's like getting on a train and finding yourself at full speed. And you want more, you need more, and you never want to get off.
There is physical love, and intellectual love. The 'right' love, I believe, must be a mix of the two. My opinion is that the one true love is the one that makes you melt when you and that person are in the same room. Like it's always too hot and you can't breathe. When you continually get the butterflies. When you're discussing with someone about something but all you can think of is, "--- would like this." or "--- would do it.."
Basically, when this person takes over your mind. When this person lights you on fire with a single touch.
It's the kind of love that always makes you feel like time is flying way too fast.
It's red.
So what is love to you? What do you think of it? And have you found it yet?
I haven't. I don't honestly believe each one of us is going to find his or her one true love. I could just not find that person. But maybe, if you two are lucky enough, you'll find each other. And when it's right, you'll know it.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Time flies so fast, it's worse than a missile
Whoa, I can't believe a year has already come and passed. Can you?
It seems like yesterday that I was starting my junior year of high school. And yet here I am, twelfth grade and a lot of dreams and preoccupations in my little beaten bag.
I feel like life is going by so fast. Seriously. Whenever I say this out loud, some older people glares at me and tells me I'm still young. But that doesn't help at all, honestly.
I'm already seventeen, and do you know how many things I could have done by this age? And yet I haven't. There's just so. many. things that I could've done and I haven't. And I know I supposedly still have a looot of time to do them, but what if doing them sometime before would've been better?
Or what if I don't get another chance?
What if I die tomorrow (just hypothetically), what about it?
Aaah. And it's even useless to worry about it because there's not even time for regrets in this life. Having regrets is stupid. The past is the past, this is the present and you gotta move on. That's what I always tell myself. Although sometimes it's hard to stay true to those words.
What about you? Is there something you wish you'd done but you didn't? Do you have some regrets, or are you happy with your life? Do you intend to make up for something you've kept away for way too long?
Elena
Monday, September 24, 2012
With great power comes great responsibility
Ahh, it's so hard to manage two blogs.
And a tumblr account.
And a twitter account.
And a facebook account.
And a facebook page.
And TWO youtube accounts.
In other words, I'm totally ignoring this blog and I'm sorry. I know I'm a bitch. But it's just freaking HARD to keep up with everything. And I don't have the heart to abandon any of the afore-mentioned things, so here we are.
Also, with having to study for school and all.. it all gets a bit too much.
And a tumblr account.
And a twitter account.
And a facebook account.
And a facebook page.
And TWO youtube accounts.
In other words, I'm totally ignoring this blog and I'm sorry. I know I'm a bitch. But it's just freaking HARD to keep up with everything. And I don't have the heart to abandon any of the afore-mentioned things, so here we are.
Also, with having to study for school and all.. it all gets a bit too much.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
I'M BBAAACK. :)
Hello babes.
How long as it been? A lot, I think. This summer I've been busy for several reasons, plus I recently started a new blog which isn't solely about myself but abous books (with which I'm obsessed, as you know).
I kind of want to take this blog back, though. I even started using tumblr these days (I finally understood how to use it! Yay!). So yeah, I'm feeling all technological and I wanna exploit this random emotion for my own benefits. So what's been up with you guys? What are you doing, how are you feeling?
[Oh, today is Suicide Awareness day, so little brackets here --> Hi guys, life is good. Don't throw it away.]
I'm about to start my senior year of high school, which I'm calling senior year but isn't actually a senior year because I live in Italy and after this one I'll still have another year of high school ahead of me.
Yay.
Not.
So I'm just about to start my twelfth year of high school, let's leave it at that. I've decided that this year I really gotta put myself into it if I intend to go somewhere nearly prestigious after HS. Which I do. I don't want to end up as a tramp in some deserted town in the middle of nowhere playing a guitar I can't play in a street I don't know the name of (okay, a bit drastic here, but it serves to inspire me).
My dream is New York and I'm sure someday I'll be there. I know it. Even if I DID actually have to live as a tramp. I'd be a New York tramp, and that would be all right with me.
So yeah, I gotta work, work, work this year out.
And definitely put my head into it.
SEE YAA AT THE NEXT POST! WHICH IS GOING TO COME OUT SOON. BECAUSE I'M BACK ON THIS BLOG AND I'M HERE TO STAY, HONS. :)
How long as it been? A lot, I think. This summer I've been busy for several reasons, plus I recently started a new blog which isn't solely about myself but abous books (with which I'm obsessed, as you know).
I kind of want to take this blog back, though. I even started using tumblr these days (I finally understood how to use it! Yay!). So yeah, I'm feeling all technological and I wanna exploit this random emotion for my own benefits. So what's been up with you guys? What are you doing, how are you feeling?
[Oh, today is Suicide Awareness day, so little brackets here --> Hi guys, life is good. Don't throw it away.]
I'm about to start my senior year of high school, which I'm calling senior year but isn't actually a senior year because I live in Italy and after this one I'll still have another year of high school ahead of me.
Yay.
Not.
So I'm just about to start my twelfth year of high school, let's leave it at that. I've decided that this year I really gotta put myself into it if I intend to go somewhere nearly prestigious after HS. Which I do. I don't want to end up as a tramp in some deserted town in the middle of nowhere playing a guitar I can't play in a street I don't know the name of (okay, a bit drastic here, but it serves to inspire me).
My dream is New York and I'm sure someday I'll be there. I know it. Even if I DID actually have to live as a tramp. I'd be a New York tramp, and that would be all right with me.
So yeah, I gotta work, work, work this year out.
And definitely put my head into it.
SEE YAA AT THE NEXT POST! WHICH IS GOING TO COME OUT SOON. BECAUSE I'M BACK ON THIS BLOG AND I'M HERE TO STAY, HONS. :)
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
What color is your world?
How fucking much can it hurt, when you think you have something and then you realized you don't?
When you're so sure everything is inside your hands, but when you open them you find out they're empty?
They tell you never to consider something yours, when it isn't. Never to cage things that weren't yours in the first place.
But what if they were? What if they were one of the few possessions you had, and then someone came out of the blue and tore them out of you?
No warning, no excuse. They just took, and took, and took more until there was nothing left to steal.
What do you do to that? How are you supposed to react?
Are you supposed to be superior, and not care at all about what was taken from you, or should you react? Should you try to get them back?
Should you realize they weren't so important anymore, or should you be, not angry, but rather disappointed, in how they were stolen?
Who said disappointment is none other than "the feeling you get when someone doesn't do for you what you would do for that person anytime", was dead-right. It's just that people expect too much. Some people are too good to be bad. They see the world in bright colors, and they expect others to be like them. They can't conceive how would anyone else see it differently. Well they do.
There are colors, and my world is one color, and yours is another one.
Then there's those people who see their world so bright, but then they hit dead-straight in darkness, and they decide to paint their world black or someone else splashes black paint on it for them.
And then it's done.
How do you come back from that?
But I guess I'm babbling, and I'm the only one who's really getting what I'm aiming at.
Conclusion of this post is that I'm pissed, but actually I'm just disappointed, and yeah. People suck. Big time. But not always.
When you're so sure everything is inside your hands, but when you open them you find out they're empty?
They tell you never to consider something yours, when it isn't. Never to cage things that weren't yours in the first place.
But what if they were? What if they were one of the few possessions you had, and then someone came out of the blue and tore them out of you?
No warning, no excuse. They just took, and took, and took more until there was nothing left to steal.
What do you do to that? How are you supposed to react?
Are you supposed to be superior, and not care at all about what was taken from you, or should you react? Should you try to get them back?
Should you realize they weren't so important anymore, or should you be, not angry, but rather disappointed, in how they were stolen?
Who said disappointment is none other than "the feeling you get when someone doesn't do for you what you would do for that person anytime", was dead-right. It's just that people expect too much. Some people are too good to be bad. They see the world in bright colors, and they expect others to be like them. They can't conceive how would anyone else see it differently. Well they do.
There are colors, and my world is one color, and yours is another one.
Then there's those people who see their world so bright, but then they hit dead-straight in darkness, and they decide to paint their world black or someone else splashes black paint on it for them.
And then it's done.
How do you come back from that?
But I guess I'm babbling, and I'm the only one who's really getting what I'm aiming at.
Conclusion of this post is that I'm pissed, but actually I'm just disappointed, and yeah. People suck. Big time. But not always.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Losing a friend
Have you ever lost a friend?
One that you really really cared about?
And you didn't want to lose them, yet you couldn't help it.
That's kind of what's happening to me, and it hurts more than it seems.
I made my mistakes in the past. I won't deny that. But I'm not the only one.
You know, there are the people you kind of notice, but whenever they do something that pisses you off you just go flip them off.
And then there's those people you care about so much that when they make a mistake you're not angry at them, you try to help them. You love them so much that a mistake made by them is not something to push you away from them, but closer.
This is the way I've always felt towards this friend of mine. Sure, she pisses me off big time and most of the time I can't stand her. She's Aries and I'm Leo, so no surprise there.
But all this time yeah, I kept getting pissed off a lot, but I cared about her a lot anyway.
Well, apparently I was the only one feeling that way. Apparently she saw me as "just another friend", because as soon as we had a fight she didn't waste time cutting me out of her life.
If it wasn't that I'm not a lesbian and we're just friends, I guess I'd dedicate to her the song "Somebody that I used to know", by Gotye ft. Kimbra. Me being Gotye, duh.
The thing that hurts so bad is that apparently I'm the only one who wants to save the relationship. I keep texting her from time to time, but she doesn't. And when she replies it's so cold.
Right now she just sent me a message where she asks me why I keep writing to her since I don't even say hi anymore and all that sort of stuff.
I do say hi. I told her so. In a moment of complete sentimentality, I even told her I really care about our friendship and I didn't want to lose it. And guess what? She didn't even reply to that.
I feel kinda loser-ish writing all this in a blog no one ever reads except for me when I check my grammar mistakes, but still. I felt the need to tell all this to "someone" and I'm not really the type of person to go out and tell people how I feel. That's just not me.
So yeah, have you ever been in a situation like this? Or kinda like this?
I know I'm a bitch, but I think I'm a caring bitch.
Right?
One that you really really cared about?
And you didn't want to lose them, yet you couldn't help it.
That's kind of what's happening to me, and it hurts more than it seems.
I made my mistakes in the past. I won't deny that. But I'm not the only one.
You know, there are the people you kind of notice, but whenever they do something that pisses you off you just go flip them off.
And then there's those people you care about so much that when they make a mistake you're not angry at them, you try to help them. You love them so much that a mistake made by them is not something to push you away from them, but closer.
This is the way I've always felt towards this friend of mine. Sure, she pisses me off big time and most of the time I can't stand her. She's Aries and I'm Leo, so no surprise there.
But all this time yeah, I kept getting pissed off a lot, but I cared about her a lot anyway.
Well, apparently I was the only one feeling that way. Apparently she saw me as "just another friend", because as soon as we had a fight she didn't waste time cutting me out of her life.
If it wasn't that I'm not a lesbian and we're just friends, I guess I'd dedicate to her the song "Somebody that I used to know", by Gotye ft. Kimbra. Me being Gotye, duh.
The thing that hurts so bad is that apparently I'm the only one who wants to save the relationship. I keep texting her from time to time, but she doesn't. And when she replies it's so cold.
Right now she just sent me a message where she asks me why I keep writing to her since I don't even say hi anymore and all that sort of stuff.
I do say hi. I told her so. In a moment of complete sentimentality, I even told her I really care about our friendship and I didn't want to lose it. And guess what? She didn't even reply to that.
I feel kinda loser-ish writing all this in a blog no one ever reads except for me when I check my grammar mistakes, but still. I felt the need to tell all this to "someone" and I'm not really the type of person to go out and tell people how I feel. That's just not me.
So yeah, have you ever been in a situation like this? Or kinda like this?
I know I'm a bitch, but I think I'm a caring bitch.
Right?
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
I really am a dork
Second time declining an invitation to a party.
Maybe the third.
In my defense, two of them were birthday parties at some club, and a) the birthday-ed person was not on my favorite-people list, and b) I'm not really the club type.
I'm more like the bookaholic. (no surprise here)
The thing is, I like dancing and stuff, but with friends. Not with a bunch of horny guys who only go there to hook up. I'm an effing innocent virgin, for goodness' sake. It's unnerving.
Anyway, back to my procrastinating self. I know I should "live by the moment". I am perfectly aware that I'm fi--sixteen (why do I always say fifteen? I don't even know my own age), that I should party and have fun and make the best of it. Believe me, I do. But I'm just not like that.
I'm shy, insecure, and worst of all, I act like I am none of those things.
I know a few people who are shy, and insecure like me, but their "condition" is public to everybody, so everybody knows.
With me.. strangely enough, I'm too proud to admit it, and that makes it twice the harder. Because I am shy, and nobody knows. So nobody gets my behavior. Unnerving, this, too.
So yeah, I'm basically writing this post while everybody's at this party, having fun, while I, the dork that I'm aware of being, am home crying (metaphorically speaking of course, I don't cry. Never) my heart out to a blog nobody even reads.
What a nice evening.
xx darkwriter
Maybe the third.
In my defense, two of them were birthday parties at some club, and a) the birthday-ed person was not on my favorite-people list, and b) I'm not really the club type.
I'm more like the bookaholic. (no surprise here)
The thing is, I like dancing and stuff, but with friends. Not with a bunch of horny guys who only go there to hook up. I'm an effing innocent virgin, for goodness' sake. It's unnerving.
Anyway, back to my procrastinating self. I know I should "live by the moment". I am perfectly aware that I'm fi--sixteen (why do I always say fifteen? I don't even know my own age), that I should party and have fun and make the best of it. Believe me, I do. But I'm just not like that.
I'm shy, insecure, and worst of all, I act like I am none of those things.
I know a few people who are shy, and insecure like me, but their "condition" is public to everybody, so everybody knows.
With me.. strangely enough, I'm too proud to admit it, and that makes it twice the harder. Because I am shy, and nobody knows. So nobody gets my behavior. Unnerving, this, too.
So yeah, I'm basically writing this post while everybody's at this party, having fun, while I, the dork that I'm aware of being, am home crying (metaphorically speaking of course, I don't cry. Never) my heart out to a blog nobody even reads.
What a nice evening.
xx darkwriter
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Rainie Yang
Do you guys know who Rainie Yang is?
I was listening to one of her songs and suddenly realized shes' not getting as much fame as she should.
Rainie Yang, also called Yang Cheng Lin, is a Taiwanese singer.
She was born on June 4th, 1984, in Taipei, Taiwan (Repubilc of China). So she's about to be 28 years old.
Since I study Chinese in my high school, I decided to try and watch some Asian dramas, and listen to Asian songs, as you know from my earliest posts.
So, I think it was last year, a friend of mine from Singapore suggested I watched my first Taiwanese drama, Tian Wai Fei Xian. It was starring Ariel Lin (an amazing actress) and Hu Ge (a hot actor).
So after this one, I got hooked up with Asian dramas and asked for more.
That's when Vanora (my friend) suggested me my first Rainie Yang drama, Hi My Sweetheart, also starring Show Luo who is a Taiwanese actor I'd grown to love when I'd first heard him in a song.
And here began my "love" for Rainie, who was so beautiful and so talented.
If you ask on the net about Rainie, the first word anyone will tell you is "cute". Seriously, this is Rainie's adjective for excecllence. But you'll know what I mean only once you've seen one of her dramas.
But back to the point, as I was saying, I watched Hi My Sweetheart. Then, liking so much Rainie's performance, I proceeded to watch all her other dramas I possibly could, and that's how my RY list grew: Miss No Good, Hi My Sweetheart, Why Why Love, Drunken To Love You and, last but not at all least, Devil Beside You.
This last one is officially my favorite drama. My favorite Rainie drama, but also my favorite drama in general.
Here Rainie worked with Mike He, who is her commonly known as her counterpart.
And with that I mean, ask anyone, and they'll probably tell you the best drama couple is Rainie&Mike.
They look just too good together.
Too bad they apparently never had anything in real life.
So, going back in time, Rainie's career started out with the "Four In Love", a group of four girls obviously including Rainie, that made nice music.
Anyway, the group soon disgregated, but our good old Rainie never lost her goodwill.
She obtained a part in the famour Meteor Garden, a Taiwanese adaptation of the manga Hana Yori Dango, of which I talked in my previous post. So as you know, I didn't finish this drama because I didn't like it at all, but nonetheless I loved Rainie's performance because I'm a true fan. u.u LOL.
So, after getting small parts in various dramas, she finally hit the spotlight with her first drama that saw her as main character, and that was our awesome Devil Beside You. Well, what can I say.
Definitely a good point to start, seeing the drama was so effing beautiful.
So here her career as actress as well as singer began.
In fact, due to her previous career as a singer, she is the voice of two songs from the DBY soundtrack, Li Xiang Qin Ren, whose video's also starring our beautiful Mike He, and Ai Mei.
So with Devil Beside You, Rainie Yang officially started to fly and so far she hasn't come down to rest yet. ;D
Soo.
I guess I've bored you enough with one of my several obsession, so I'll stop here.
But make sure you check out Rainie's work!
Don't let the fact that she's Asian stop you. I know a lot of people are not used to seeing Asia as "homeland for famous people", for lack of words. What I mean with this is, if you asked me a few years ago, before I started studying Chinese, I would've told there wasn't anything produced in China and such for teens. Everything was in the US and Europe. I just didn't see Asia as a possibility. True, I only was in Junior High so I was kinda stupid at the time, but still.
What I'm trying to say is, Asia DOES have some really talented guy, who do not get enogh fame and popularity because people always solely concentrate on America and Europe.
We should all try to open your eyes and minds and see there's not just that.
I'll leave you with a list of my favorite songs by Rainie:
Yu Ai (my absolute favorite);
Dai Wo Zou;
Pian Shi;
Ai Mei;
Hei Se Yue Liang;
Leng Zhan.
Have a nice day!
xx darkwriter
I was listening to one of her songs and suddenly realized shes' not getting as much fame as she should.
Rainie Yang, also called Yang Cheng Lin, is a Taiwanese singer.
She was born on June 4th, 1984, in Taipei, Taiwan (Repubilc of China). So she's about to be 28 years old.
Since I study Chinese in my high school, I decided to try and watch some Asian dramas, and listen to Asian songs, as you know from my earliest posts.
So, I think it was last year, a friend of mine from Singapore suggested I watched my first Taiwanese drama, Tian Wai Fei Xian. It was starring Ariel Lin (an amazing actress) and Hu Ge (a hot actor).
So after this one, I got hooked up with Asian dramas and asked for more.
That's when Vanora (my friend) suggested me my first Rainie Yang drama, Hi My Sweetheart, also starring Show Luo who is a Taiwanese actor I'd grown to love when I'd first heard him in a song.
And here began my "love" for Rainie, who was so beautiful and so talented.
If you ask on the net about Rainie, the first word anyone will tell you is "cute". Seriously, this is Rainie's adjective for excecllence. But you'll know what I mean only once you've seen one of her dramas.
But back to the point, as I was saying, I watched Hi My Sweetheart. Then, liking so much Rainie's performance, I proceeded to watch all her other dramas I possibly could, and that's how my RY list grew: Miss No Good, Hi My Sweetheart, Why Why Love, Drunken To Love You and, last but not at all least, Devil Beside You.
This last one is officially my favorite drama. My favorite Rainie drama, but also my favorite drama in general.
Here Rainie worked with Mike He, who is her commonly known as her counterpart.
And with that I mean, ask anyone, and they'll probably tell you the best drama couple is Rainie&Mike.
They look just too good together.
Too bad they apparently never had anything in real life.
So, going back in time, Rainie's career started out with the "Four In Love", a group of four girls obviously including Rainie, that made nice music.
Anyway, the group soon disgregated, but our good old Rainie never lost her goodwill.
She obtained a part in the famour Meteor Garden, a Taiwanese adaptation of the manga Hana Yori Dango, of which I talked in my previous post. So as you know, I didn't finish this drama because I didn't like it at all, but nonetheless I loved Rainie's performance because I'm a true fan. u.u LOL.
So, after getting small parts in various dramas, she finally hit the spotlight with her first drama that saw her as main character, and that was our awesome Devil Beside You. Well, what can I say.
Definitely a good point to start, seeing the drama was so effing beautiful.
So here her career as actress as well as singer began.
In fact, due to her previous career as a singer, she is the voice of two songs from the DBY soundtrack, Li Xiang Qin Ren, whose video's also starring our beautiful Mike He, and Ai Mei.
So with Devil Beside You, Rainie Yang officially started to fly and so far she hasn't come down to rest yet. ;D
Soo.
I guess I've bored you enough with one of my several obsession, so I'll stop here.
But make sure you check out Rainie's work!
Don't let the fact that she's Asian stop you. I know a lot of people are not used to seeing Asia as "homeland for famous people", for lack of words. What I mean with this is, if you asked me a few years ago, before I started studying Chinese, I would've told there wasn't anything produced in China and such for teens. Everything was in the US and Europe. I just didn't see Asia as a possibility. True, I only was in Junior High so I was kinda stupid at the time, but still.
What I'm trying to say is, Asia DOES have some really talented guy, who do not get enogh fame and popularity because people always solely concentrate on America and Europe.
We should all try to open your eyes and minds and see there's not just that.
I'll leave you with a list of my favorite songs by Rainie:
Yu Ai (my absolute favorite);
Dai Wo Zou;
Pian Shi;
Ai Mei;
Hei Se Yue Liang;
Leng Zhan.
Have a nice day!
xx darkwriter
Friday, January 20, 2012
Hana Yori Dango!
So, a few months ago I stumbled across a Taiwanese drama, called Meteor Garden.
I soon got to know it had been a big hit on Taiwanese televisions, so I decided to try it. Rainie Yang had also gotten a little part in it (she was younger and less expert at the time), and you know how obsessed I am with her.
The drama had good premises, and I was so eager to start it.
However, after a few episodes, I realized:
a) the acting sucked. I'm sorry, but it's true;
b) the clothes were so horrible I couldn't even look at them;
c) the lines were stupid;
d ) I didn't like the actors.
So all these elements were kind of a throw-off, and I gave up on the drama.
However, considering my latest obsession for SS501, I realized Kim Hyun Joong (ex leader of the band) acted in Boys Over Flowers, the Korean version of Meteor Garden.
So I told myself, "Why not?" The plot was already nice, and I'd change actors, so maybe it would be better.
In the mean time I also discovered there was yet another version of it, a Japanese one.
And here you have me unable to decide which one to try first.
My friend Erica, who studies Japanese, adviced me to 'absolutely read Hana Yori Dango', which is the title given to the Japanese version, coming right from the inspiring manga.
I decided to trust her taste and try that one.
..
AWESOME.
Hana Yori Dango stars Inoue Mao and Matsumoto Jun as main characters, respectively Makino Tsukushi and Domyouji Tsukasa. The other names I still have to learn.
Basically, in the drama you have Makino, a poor girl studying at a prestigious school, thanks to her parents' continuous sacrifices. She has a strong sense of justice and doesn't like people comanding her.
Domyouji is the leader of the F4, a worldwide-famous 'group' formed by Domyouji and three other friends of his: Hanazawa Rui, I-can't-remember-your-name Soujiroh and I-can't remember-your-name-at-all. (Hey! They're Japanese. It's hard enough in Chinese, give me a break.)
The F4 are bullies who don't care about anyone or anything, and always get what they want. Since they're probably the richest heirs in all Japan, no one can tell a thing to them. Not even the teachers. So they basically have complete freedom wherever they go.
Well, Makino and Domyouji's fates encounter when he makes fun of her friend, Sakurako, and she can't stand it. She stands up and finally tells Domyouji to back off.
Isn't he surprised at this show of courage, especially coming from a pennyless girl. And especially when she punches him in front of the whole school and then takes off.
Reaction? Domyouji gives her the 'red notice', a red paper signed F4, which basically announces that you're in deep shit. Since the F4 rule on the whole school, you're now at the mercee of everybody, ready to be picked on and assaulted.
When she doesn't back off, Domyouji appeals to more drastic ways to scare Makino. Only everytime she's in serious danger, Hanazawa Rui is always around. He's the 'angel' of the group. (he always dresses in white!) He doesn't like having all this power, he doesn't want it. He's the more reflective and introspective one of the F4. And when Makino needs him, he's always there to help her, even though he clearly states he's not doing for her, but only because he hates that sort of things (the attacks).
That doesn't prevent Makino from developing a huge crush on him.
And Domyouji's reaction? He's jealous. He's slowly coming to admire Makino's strength and courage, and he feels something deep in his chest telling him to know more about her.
So what will happen, with Makino in love with an ngel, and a demon in love with her?
Who will she choose in the end?
I totally loved this drama.
It's composed of two seasons, plus a movie. I'm currently watching the movie.
Season one was really good, and it made you think, at the end, that everything was going to be just fine. Then season two, anyway, was an emotional roller coaster. I kept sighing and being sad while watching the episode. It was so heartbreaking yet so addicting, I couldn't stop watching even though I was mentally suffering.
It ended AMAZINGLY. And maybe they should've stopped there.
The movie I'm watching right now is cool, and I like having more of M. and D., but maybe if they left it at the end of season two it would have been better. That ending was just perfect.
Anyway, I'm gonna see the end of this movie and find out how it all finally ends.
---
I felt like sharing this with you, since I liked it so much.
It took me some time to get used to Japanese, since I usually watch Taiwanese drama, but it was fun. I actually learned something of the language, haha.
So, in case you were thinking about watching HYD (Hana Yori Dango), DO IT DO IT DO IT!
It's awesome.
xx darkwriter
I soon got to know it had been a big hit on Taiwanese televisions, so I decided to try it. Rainie Yang had also gotten a little part in it (she was younger and less expert at the time), and you know how obsessed I am with her.
The drama had good premises, and I was so eager to start it.
However, after a few episodes, I realized:
a) the acting sucked. I'm sorry, but it's true;
b) the clothes were so horrible I couldn't even look at them;
c) the lines were stupid;
d ) I didn't like the actors.
So all these elements were kind of a throw-off, and I gave up on the drama.
However, considering my latest obsession for SS501, I realized Kim Hyun Joong (ex leader of the band) acted in Boys Over Flowers, the Korean version of Meteor Garden.
So I told myself, "Why not?" The plot was already nice, and I'd change actors, so maybe it would be better.
In the mean time I also discovered there was yet another version of it, a Japanese one.
And here you have me unable to decide which one to try first.
My friend Erica, who studies Japanese, adviced me to 'absolutely read Hana Yori Dango', which is the title given to the Japanese version, coming right from the inspiring manga.
I decided to trust her taste and try that one.
..
AWESOME.
Hana Yori Dango stars Inoue Mao and Matsumoto Jun as main characters, respectively Makino Tsukushi and Domyouji Tsukasa. The other names I still have to learn.
Basically, in the drama you have Makino, a poor girl studying at a prestigious school, thanks to her parents' continuous sacrifices. She has a strong sense of justice and doesn't like people comanding her.
Domyouji is the leader of the F4, a worldwide-famous 'group' formed by Domyouji and three other friends of his: Hanazawa Rui, I-can't-remember-your-name Soujiroh and I-can't remember-your-name-at-all. (Hey! They're Japanese. It's hard enough in Chinese, give me a break.)
The F4 are bullies who don't care about anyone or anything, and always get what they want. Since they're probably the richest heirs in all Japan, no one can tell a thing to them. Not even the teachers. So they basically have complete freedom wherever they go.
Well, Makino and Domyouji's fates encounter when he makes fun of her friend, Sakurako, and she can't stand it. She stands up and finally tells Domyouji to back off.
Isn't he surprised at this show of courage, especially coming from a pennyless girl. And especially when she punches him in front of the whole school and then takes off.
Reaction? Domyouji gives her the 'red notice', a red paper signed F4, which basically announces that you're in deep shit. Since the F4 rule on the whole school, you're now at the mercee of everybody, ready to be picked on and assaulted.
When she doesn't back off, Domyouji appeals to more drastic ways to scare Makino. Only everytime she's in serious danger, Hanazawa Rui is always around. He's the 'angel' of the group. (he always dresses in white!) He doesn't like having all this power, he doesn't want it. He's the more reflective and introspective one of the F4. And when Makino needs him, he's always there to help her, even though he clearly states he's not doing for her, but only because he hates that sort of things (the attacks).
That doesn't prevent Makino from developing a huge crush on him.
And Domyouji's reaction? He's jealous. He's slowly coming to admire Makino's strength and courage, and he feels something deep in his chest telling him to know more about her.
So what will happen, with Makino in love with an ngel, and a demon in love with her?
Who will she choose in the end?
I totally loved this drama.
It's composed of two seasons, plus a movie. I'm currently watching the movie.
Season one was really good, and it made you think, at the end, that everything was going to be just fine. Then season two, anyway, was an emotional roller coaster. I kept sighing and being sad while watching the episode. It was so heartbreaking yet so addicting, I couldn't stop watching even though I was mentally suffering.
It ended AMAZINGLY. And maybe they should've stopped there.
The movie I'm watching right now is cool, and I like having more of M. and D., but maybe if they left it at the end of season two it would have been better. That ending was just perfect.
Anyway, I'm gonna see the end of this movie and find out how it all finally ends.
---
I felt like sharing this with you, since I liked it so much.
It took me some time to get used to Japanese, since I usually watch Taiwanese drama, but it was fun. I actually learned something of the language, haha.
So, in case you were thinking about watching HYD (Hana Yori Dango), DO IT DO IT DO IT!
It's awesome.
xx darkwriter
Monday, January 16, 2012
New design!.. again.
Hola guys.
I changed for the twentieth time my layout and background.
Don't get me wrong--I loved the last one. Seriously, that black and those flames were totally badass (LOL), but I felt it was kind of.. heavy. Like you couldn't fully concentrate on what was written on the blog. So I changed it. Snow is pure and silence hangs on the landscape, so I think it's perfect. (:
So, what's up with you?
Christmas's come and gone! And so is New Year's Eve. So now we're finally in 2012.
Do you think we're all going to die? I personally hope so.
Not because one of my last wishes is to hear people screaming in my hears pulling their hair out and going mad because the world is revolting on itself (though that would be fun to see), but because it would mean something.
Wouldn't it be cool to know that somewhere, somehow, somebody was able, more than two thousand years ago, to predict the end of the whole world? That must be pretty badass.
If there's something after death, I was a Maya, and the world really did end, I'd be laughing my ass off at people's faces when they realize after all the Mexican guys were right.
Of course, there are more than a million possibilities, which would state the world is not ending, for why they stoppped their calendar at year 2012. Like, they had finished paper (or whatever they wrote on or something). Or they grew bored. Or they wanted to play a trick on the fools who would believe them. LOL. Or maybe they were right.
Anyway, I was doing one of my usual wandering on google/wikipedia, so I looked up the Maya Calendar on Wikipedia.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maya_calendar This is what's written about it. It explains how their calendar is formed, and why would people think 2012 will be the last year of our lives.
But it also states there are some inscriptions regarding years after 2012, so it's improbable our end-of-the-world supposition is true.
Still, hoping doesn't hurt.
Lately I've been obsessed with a Korean band called ss501. Even though their fans hate them to be called this (screw you! mwah. I'm saying it and proud of it), they kind of sound like the Korean backstreet boys. Just go listen to them, it's totally true, and it's stupid to try denying it.
I personally love Love ya, Love Like This and Not Alone. The others were cool but basically these three are the only ones I really like.
Also, I learned that in 2010 (or was it 2009?) the group disbanded because their contract ended. So they kept making music, but everybody on his own, as a solo artist.
Right now I only listened to Kiss Kiss and Please by Kim Hyun Joong, the ex-lead of the band, and I liked them. Kiss Kiss is kind of commercial, but it's cute. Please, on the other hand, is really really beautiful. I love the lyrics.
I also listened to a song by some other guy of the group, but I can't remember the name or the song. >.< (Hey, Korean names are difficult!)
And oh, sorry. I just realized that Not Alone is actually a solo song, by Park Jung Min. It's not SS501's. It's just that this was the first Korean song I heard, and I'd read that he was part of that band so I thought the song was by them. Wrong. (:
I'm also feeding my obsession for Rainie Yang, watching another taiwanese drama with her in it. It's called Drunken To Love You, starring Joseph Chang and her and other people I don't know the names of.
It's basically the story of two people who are both going to get married, but they both get dumped by their respective boyfriend/girlfriend. So they get drunk together, not knowing each other, and end up marrying. The next morning they wake up not knowing what happened and finding their status on their ID cards changed from 'single' to 'married'. No need to say they're in deep shit.
The problem now with getting a fast divorse is that Jie Xiu's (Joseph Chang) is Tang Ai Wei, a famous movie star. And she's apologizing to him, telling him she wants him back, but at the same time saying they can't become public and the moment because it would ruin her movie contract. So she proposes something:
Xiao Ru (Rainie Yang) and Jie Xiu could stay married as a fake couple, so that Ai Wei and Jie Xiu won't have trouble with paparazzi. Xiao Ru reluctantly accepts under the offer of one million RMB (Ren Min Bi, Chinese coin) (while she was drunk, she left her rent house and spent all her 600.000 RMB somewhere. She doesn't know where.), but things get complicated when Jie Xiu and her start feeling something they shouldn't for each other.
So where will this take us..?
This is the second installment of a trilogy which started with another drama, Fated To Love You. (this one was basically about a girl losing her virginity to a stranger, because she thought he was her boyfriend. While he made love to her thinking she was his girlfriend. She gets pregnant and BAM! They're in deep shit, too, and have to handle the situation. And of course they fall in love in the process. I didn't personally watch this drama. I only saw the first two or three episodes, but I totally loathed the main character so I abandoned it. But I hear it had record audience.)
Like FTLU, it had a great audience and an enormous success in Taiwan.
Rainie cut her hair and for once played a more mature character. It was a great turn for her, and she did it really well.
I currently have three episodes left to see, then I'm off to the next drama, haha.
Right now I'm reading Wuthering Heights by Charlotte Bronte. I'd arranged to finish it in one week, but I'm at the end of the second and still stuck on the same point since almost a week now. I'm gonna finish in the next few days though. I will. u.u
Also, I'm reading Beautiful Creatures by Kami Garcia but I'm stuck with that one, too.
One of the reasons is that I got hooked up with this Taiwanese drama so I was concentrated on that, but also this book isn't has good as I was hoping. It's not that it's bad, it's just plain boring. x'D
I'd picked it up because I'd heard nice reviews about it, and maybe it's all in the ending, but so far I haven't found anything special about it.
So, it's past one a.m. in the morning and I have school tomorrow, so I'll leave you guys now.
I hope this background satifies me still tomorrow, so I won't have to change it again.
Goodnight, love!
xx
I changed for the twentieth time my layout and background.
Don't get me wrong--I loved the last one. Seriously, that black and those flames were totally badass (LOL), but I felt it was kind of.. heavy. Like you couldn't fully concentrate on what was written on the blog. So I changed it. Snow is pure and silence hangs on the landscape, so I think it's perfect. (:
So, what's up with you?
Christmas's come and gone! And so is New Year's Eve. So now we're finally in 2012.
Do you think we're all going to die? I personally hope so.
Not because one of my last wishes is to hear people screaming in my hears pulling their hair out and going mad because the world is revolting on itself (though that would be fun to see), but because it would mean something.
Wouldn't it be cool to know that somewhere, somehow, somebody was able, more than two thousand years ago, to predict the end of the whole world? That must be pretty badass.
If there's something after death, I was a Maya, and the world really did end, I'd be laughing my ass off at people's faces when they realize after all the Mexican guys were right.
Of course, there are more than a million possibilities, which would state the world is not ending, for why they stoppped their calendar at year 2012. Like, they had finished paper (or whatever they wrote on or something). Or they grew bored. Or they wanted to play a trick on the fools who would believe them. LOL. Or maybe they were right.
Anyway, I was doing one of my usual wandering on google/wikipedia, so I looked up the Maya Calendar on Wikipedia.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maya_calendar This is what's written about it. It explains how their calendar is formed, and why would people think 2012 will be the last year of our lives.
But it also states there are some inscriptions regarding years after 2012, so it's improbable our end-of-the-world supposition is true.
Still, hoping doesn't hurt.
Lately I've been obsessed with a Korean band called ss501. Even though their fans hate them to be called this (screw you! mwah. I'm saying it and proud of it), they kind of sound like the Korean backstreet boys. Just go listen to them, it's totally true, and it's stupid to try denying it.
I personally love Love ya, Love Like This and Not Alone. The others were cool but basically these three are the only ones I really like.
Also, I learned that in 2010 (or was it 2009?) the group disbanded because their contract ended. So they kept making music, but everybody on his own, as a solo artist.
Right now I only listened to Kiss Kiss and Please by Kim Hyun Joong, the ex-lead of the band, and I liked them. Kiss Kiss is kind of commercial, but it's cute. Please, on the other hand, is really really beautiful. I love the lyrics.
I also listened to a song by some other guy of the group, but I can't remember the name or the song. >.< (Hey, Korean names are difficult!)
And oh, sorry. I just realized that Not Alone is actually a solo song, by Park Jung Min. It's not SS501's. It's just that this was the first Korean song I heard, and I'd read that he was part of that band so I thought the song was by them. Wrong. (:
I'm also feeding my obsession for Rainie Yang, watching another taiwanese drama with her in it. It's called Drunken To Love You, starring Joseph Chang and her and other people I don't know the names of.
It's basically the story of two people who are both going to get married, but they both get dumped by their respective boyfriend/girlfriend. So they get drunk together, not knowing each other, and end up marrying. The next morning they wake up not knowing what happened and finding their status on their ID cards changed from 'single' to 'married'. No need to say they're in deep shit.
The problem now with getting a fast divorse is that Jie Xiu's (Joseph Chang) is Tang Ai Wei, a famous movie star. And she's apologizing to him, telling him she wants him back, but at the same time saying they can't become public and the moment because it would ruin her movie contract. So she proposes something:
Xiao Ru (Rainie Yang) and Jie Xiu could stay married as a fake couple, so that Ai Wei and Jie Xiu won't have trouble with paparazzi. Xiao Ru reluctantly accepts under the offer of one million RMB (Ren Min Bi, Chinese coin) (while she was drunk, she left her rent house and spent all her 600.000 RMB somewhere. She doesn't know where.), but things get complicated when Jie Xiu and her start feeling something they shouldn't for each other.
So where will this take us..?
This is the second installment of a trilogy which started with another drama, Fated To Love You. (this one was basically about a girl losing her virginity to a stranger, because she thought he was her boyfriend. While he made love to her thinking she was his girlfriend. She gets pregnant and BAM! They're in deep shit, too, and have to handle the situation. And of course they fall in love in the process. I didn't personally watch this drama. I only saw the first two or three episodes, but I totally loathed the main character so I abandoned it. But I hear it had record audience.)
Like FTLU, it had a great audience and an enormous success in Taiwan.
Rainie cut her hair and for once played a more mature character. It was a great turn for her, and she did it really well.
I currently have three episodes left to see, then I'm off to the next drama, haha.
Right now I'm reading Wuthering Heights by Charlotte Bronte. I'd arranged to finish it in one week, but I'm at the end of the second and still stuck on the same point since almost a week now. I'm gonna finish in the next few days though. I will. u.u
Also, I'm reading Beautiful Creatures by Kami Garcia but I'm stuck with that one, too.
One of the reasons is that I got hooked up with this Taiwanese drama so I was concentrated on that, but also this book isn't has good as I was hoping. It's not that it's bad, it's just plain boring. x'D
I'd picked it up because I'd heard nice reviews about it, and maybe it's all in the ending, but so far I haven't found anything special about it.
So, it's past one a.m. in the morning and I have school tomorrow, so I'll leave you guys now.
I hope this background satifies me still tomorrow, so I won't have to change it again.
Goodnight, love!
xx
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Memory Lane
Hiiiiiii schhhmucks. (:
Wotsup?
I’ve been gone from the internet world for nearly two weeks thanks to this crappy connection. In the mean time I read about ten books (bookeater till the end) and now I’ve only got one book left to complete my goal. (well, I already have, but then I highed it up a little to 120)
So, the other day my English teacher gave us a little article to write about one of our passions; including why we like it and what’s so special about it.
So what did I write about? It sounds kinda funny, but I wrote about writing. LOL.
Writing about writing is.. weird?
Anyway. I was kind of thinking to do something about sleeping, but then thought better of it and did it about something more substantial.
So here’s what I came up with, though I still have to review it, plus I’m not even sure that’s what I’m going to give over:
Someone asked me, “why do you love writing?” Simple.
Writing is a way to express yourself, a way to <i>lose</i> yourself, a way to say those things you wouldn’t be able to utter in real life.
Writing is one way to become part of another world, a different place, where everything’s at your own disposal. Where your deepest, most secret fantasies take form and mix together, giving life to a beautiful melody of emotions and thoughts.
Where borders are not drawn to your imagination; you can let it fly and wander, restless, to places far in place or far in time.
Why do I love writing?
Because it’s not only about me. It’s about all those people who read.
All those people that through my work are able to dream, to find a little dusty corner where they can be themselves with no rules, no orders to follow, no one but their own mind to guide them.
All those people that find peace thanks to books, and stories, or even a simple article. A light in the dark, when everything else seems to be disappearing.
There’s no bigger pleasure than to know that because of you a person can, even if just for a little while, be comfortable, peaceful. No matter where they are, no matter what they do. You can still help them, come to their aid and make them feel better.
Words are a powerful mean, maybe the strongest of all.
So you’re asking me, why do I love writing?
Because where television is not, where telephone fails to reach, where internet does not exist; you can still find words. No matter the distance, no matter how much time passes, those will still be there for you to read. Those will always wait for you to understand.
And those can even be able to change the world, if only people are willing to listen to them.
Well, at the end of this I had added something, but it was more of an insult to anyone who didn’t like writing and/or reading, so I opted against it. Ha.
I remember when last year we were given to write a short story, choosing one of the given first sentences and then working it out from that.
I remember my teacher telling me mine was really good, though I’m not sure. I’d post it for you, but it was kind of a shit. I think she said I did good because it was written sort of good (compared to my classmates’ works, of course. I wouldn’t dare say good as in book-good because it was not), but the story in itself was kind of shubby. I blame it on the incipit the book gave us. It was boring.
I agree that it’s a writer’s duty to make even the most boring thing ever interesting, but I’m sixteen (at the time fifteen) so I guess I still have a lot of work ahead.
Anyway. I don’t even know the reason of this trip down Memory Lane, honestly, so let’s move on.
I don’t know if I’ve already posted something about it, but whatever. You’ll hear it again, if so.
Have you heard Adele’s new song ‘Someone Like You’? I have, and I think it’s totally amazing. I admit, at first I didn’t like it much, but that’s ‘cause I hadn’t read the lyrics first. When I did, I was stunned. It is one of the best songs I’ve ever heard, above all in this decade. Right now most singers do commercial, they don’t focus anymore on lyrics and actual meaning of a song. They just give their voice, advertise, and that’s it. It makes me a little sick seeing music transformed in that.
Adele is one of the few singers that I see are still into music because it’s their passion, because they just like to do it. Because even if it gave them no job, no money, no anything, they’d still do it because that’s their way to connect with people. That’s what music should be about, in my opinion.
IDK if I’ve already said this, either, but I like Miley Cyrus. Well, used to like is more like it.
I was young, and I was stupid, and anyway there’s nothing wrong with liking her, especially when we’re almost the same age. Anyway, lately her music is crap. I mean, commercial crap. I’m not saying I don’t like her songs, because dance music has no meaning but it’s good to dance and I don’t despise it, I’ll give you that, but her songs used to have a little more meaning. I’m disappointed. I thought she would be better than that. Well, clearly I was wrong. You grow up, you get smarter.
Or you get more stupid. That’s up to you.
I personally like to believe I’m getting smarter, but who am I to say that.
So.
I’ve said a bunch of disconnected things now, as always, so I’m going to stop writing and post this as it is.
Thanks for reading.
P.S. I’m trying to make this blog a little more decent-looking, but after months I still haven’t understood how to do it, so give me time. ;D (please?)
Music: Good Girls Go Bad - Cobra Starship ft. Leighton Meester
Mood: Thoghtful.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
The Garden of Cyrus
But the Quincunx of Heaven runs low, and 'tis time to close the five ports of knowledge. We are unwilling to spin out our awaking thoughts into the phantasms of sleep, which often continueth precogitations; making Cables of Cobwebs and Wildernesses of handsome Groves. Besides Hippocrates hath spoke so little and the Oneirocriticall Masters, have left such frigid Interpretations from plants that there is little encouragement to dream of Paradise itself. Nor will the sweetest delight of Gardens afford much comfort in sleep; wherein the dullness of that sense shakes hands with delectable odours; and though in the Bed of Cleopatra, can hardly with any delight raise up the Ghost of a Rose. -- The Garden of Cyrus, Sir Thomas Browne.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
catching up!
How long as it been since my last post?
Trouble in heaven, I didn't have internet connection so I couldn't write or do pretty much anything. It is a sad, lonely life without internet. :')
Anyway, I seem to have come to a solution, so here I am.
I've got news on my readings:
So, last time I wrote I had finished Anna Karenina and The Turn of The Screw, hadn't I?
Well, after that I was eager to read Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte.
And of course I didn't.
What I started, and am still reading right now because I am just so slow with books are the following:
But these days I've bought another bunch of Classics, too. I want to have some culture. haha.
So I've bought:
Still from Shakespear, Much Ado for Nothing, Othello and As You Like It.
Then, a book called 'The Age of Innocence' for which I am a bit ashamed because I had never heard the author's name, and can't even remember it now, but it was among the Collins Classics so I assume he's someone important?
And I still have to read Tale of Two Cities by Dickens. (as soon as I'm over these, can't wait) and the old, good Wutherings Heights from earlier. ;D
Plus a neverending list of PN and YA I've got on goodreads.
Not to mention some tv series I've got to catch up on.
So, a lot of work ahead. (:
But talking about random stuff, did you (nonexistent) guys know that I'm going to freaking China in May?! mwahahahaha. Caaaan't wait. I'll go crazy there. And with my obsession for Chinese guys.. you never know. haha
School this year isn't so bad, I actually think I might come out of these year with good grades.
We'll see, I sincerely hope so.
This is the year where grades and extra courses and things like that start to count, so I've got to work hard.
Now, I'm tired of writing.
I guess I'll see you at my next post.
xx
Trouble in heaven, I didn't have internet connection so I couldn't write or do pretty much anything. It is a sad, lonely life without internet. :')
Anyway, I seem to have come to a solution, so here I am.
I've got news on my readings:
So, last time I wrote I had finished Anna Karenina and The Turn of The Screw, hadn't I?
Well, after that I was eager to read Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte.
And of course I didn't.
What I started, and am still reading right now because I am just so slow with books are the following:
- The Portrait of a Lady, because I wanted to explore Henry James, so at least I have to read two books by him. (I feel like I've already talked of this in another post? But whatever, I'll check later)
- A Midsummer Night's dream; correction: this I have finished. And what I'm about to tell you will make you pale: I read because I has just started the Iron King (Iron Fey Series) by Julie Kagawa, and it was based on that. I know, I know, getting to know Shakefreakingspeare's plays through a paranormal series is what I would call shameful. But moving on. I finished it, so moved on the next Shakespeare's work. (this time I didn't need anyone to tell me about it, you'll see)
- Hamlet. (: Heehee. I'm still reading it right now, as you can easily see on my goodreads account. (as if somebody was actually reading this blog. I'm so delusional) So far, so good, as the saying goes. I'm still in the first hundred pages, so yeah, we'll see. It sounds strange to say 'we'll see' about a Shakespeare play haha, but still.
- Forbidden. By.. Tabitha Suzuma, I believe it was? It sounded good. From its synopsis on goodreads, it seemed to have the right amount of twist and realistic setting to be likable. So, we'll see.
- Broken, by Meghan Hart. This one I've been stuck for more than two or three weeks now. Or well, stuck isn't the right term, since I haven't touched the poor book all the while. I just.. stopped reading it. I guess I'll pick it up again some time, soon. I hope.
- And last (both in this list and in time, since I jurt started it tonight) but not least, (the only PN one, so maybe 'least' isn't totally wrong. depends on where you come from) Half-blood by Jennifer your-surname-is-too-long-and-complicated-sorry. I've only read two or three pages, and already it sounds a little like Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead. The way daimons (what the hell of a name is that? Anyway, that would be Strigoi) are 'formed', how this guys are divided between Pure bloods (Moroi), which should be like la creme de la creme, and Half bloods (dhampirs), who are guardians or something. (still haven't read enough of it to have it clear, but it seems much like it) Anyway, it's not totally a bad things, since Vampire Academy is my favorite YA series ever. I mean, at least this author made her series like an amazing series, instead of a crappy one.
But these days I've bought another bunch of Classics, too. I want to have some culture. haha.
So I've bought:
Still from Shakespear, Much Ado for Nothing, Othello and As You Like It.
Then, a book called 'The Age of Innocence' for which I am a bit ashamed because I had never heard the author's name, and can't even remember it now, but it was among the Collins Classics so I assume he's someone important?
And I still have to read Tale of Two Cities by Dickens. (as soon as I'm over these, can't wait) and the old, good Wutherings Heights from earlier. ;D
Plus a neverending list of PN and YA I've got on goodreads.
Not to mention some tv series I've got to catch up on.
So, a lot of work ahead. (:
But talking about random stuff, did you (nonexistent) guys know that I'm going to freaking China in May?! mwahahahaha. Caaaan't wait. I'll go crazy there. And with my obsession for Chinese guys.. you never know. haha
School this year isn't so bad, I actually think I might come out of these year with good grades.
We'll see, I sincerely hope so.
This is the year where grades and extra courses and things like that start to count, so I've got to work hard.
Now, I'm tired of writing.
I guess I'll see you at my next post.
xx
Monday, September 26, 2011
finished with The Turn of the Screw!
Okay, I'm officially finished with The Turn Of The Screw, and consequently started a new book: The Portrait of a Lady. [you go Henry James!]
I couldn't decide between that; Tale Of Two Cities by Dickens and Wuthering Heighs by Emily Bronte; but eventually opted for that one.
Note to make: I asked my dad for advice. And he was obviously trying to sound clever, and he was like: "Well, dear, Dickens is a classic." And I was like "Well, dead, they're ALL classics. Duh!" -__-'' seriously.
So, about The Turn of the Screw.
It was not what I expected.
I mean, when I was first introduced to it, I thought it would be a total gothic novel, with the ghosts hanging aroung the house and, truthfully, being scarier.
Instead, I found myself caught up in a psicological book-- James knew Freud through his brother, who was a philosopher.
With this book he wanted to give us an example of how our mind can sometimes play tricks on her.
In fact, despite the fact that the kids seem to be hiding something from the governess, and that the ghosts she's seeing appear to be two people who worked in the mansion in the past and died later on, no one can see the wraiths but her.
That leads us to the natural question: Is she REALLY seeing ghosts? Or is it just her allucinating or something?
Plus, James leaves an 'open' ending.
I mean, some were left disappointed by it--others, like me, confused.
I guess the author wanted to leave us hanging; trying to understand if this was a real ghost story or a big, fat allucination of a governess.
What did I think of the book. Well, all in all I liked it.
Sure, I took me a while to get used to James' writing, but I guess that was just cause it was meant to be a governess speaking, so of course it wouldn't be that high writing-level some might expect.
However, the purpose of the book was interesting and I liked that.
---
Going on softer grounds.
I hate Chimics.
I really, really do.
True, I've only had one lesson of it so far, but TRUST ME, I hate it. :/
As for other subjects, I feel this year's going better.
I don't feel like studying, actually, but it's not too bad to do that, either.
Particularly, I'm loving Philosophy. It's just SO interesting. *-*
As for my German lessons, don't tell me.
My German teacher, sorry dude but it's true, is oh-so-disappointing.
We're doing NOTHING in class.
True, I've already attended a course when I was in middle school, so I already know the things we're doing, but truly, we're doing almost nothing. And if a student says that, that must be true.
It's frustrating.
---
Did YOU guys know I'd like to do a year of study abroad?
Well, I do.
And I probably won't.
Problem? moooooooooooooooooooney. Who said they don't rule the world? Because that was a total moron.
Years abroad cost thousands and thousands of dollars, and I'm not sure I can afford that.
We'll see.
I'd SO love to go in the USA for a year, I absolutely love it. I love it, love it, love it.
But I can't put too much hope on that, so I'll just think as if I wasn't going, so it'll be easier if I actually don't. ;D
Well, I wanted to say something else but apparently forgot it, so I guess it was nothing important.
xdarkwriter
I couldn't decide between that; Tale Of Two Cities by Dickens and Wuthering Heighs by Emily Bronte; but eventually opted for that one.
Note to make: I asked my dad for advice. And he was obviously trying to sound clever, and he was like: "Well, dear, Dickens is a classic." And I was like "Well, dead, they're ALL classics. Duh!" -__-'' seriously.
So, about The Turn of the Screw.
It was not what I expected.
I mean, when I was first introduced to it, I thought it would be a total gothic novel, with the ghosts hanging aroung the house and, truthfully, being scarier.
Instead, I found myself caught up in a psicological book-- James knew Freud through his brother, who was a philosopher.
With this book he wanted to give us an example of how our mind can sometimes play tricks on her.
In fact, despite the fact that the kids seem to be hiding something from the governess, and that the ghosts she's seeing appear to be two people who worked in the mansion in the past and died later on, no one can see the wraiths but her.
That leads us to the natural question: Is she REALLY seeing ghosts? Or is it just her allucinating or something?
Plus, James leaves an 'open' ending.
I mean, some were left disappointed by it--others, like me, confused.
I guess the author wanted to leave us hanging; trying to understand if this was a real ghost story or a big, fat allucination of a governess.
What did I think of the book. Well, all in all I liked it.
Sure, I took me a while to get used to James' writing, but I guess that was just cause it was meant to be a governess speaking, so of course it wouldn't be that high writing-level some might expect.
However, the purpose of the book was interesting and I liked that.
---
Going on softer grounds.
I hate Chimics.
I really, really do.
True, I've only had one lesson of it so far, but TRUST ME, I hate it. :/
As for other subjects, I feel this year's going better.
I don't feel like studying, actually, but it's not too bad to do that, either.
Particularly, I'm loving Philosophy. It's just SO interesting. *-*
As for my German lessons, don't tell me.
My German teacher, sorry dude but it's true, is oh-so-disappointing.
We're doing NOTHING in class.
True, I've already attended a course when I was in middle school, so I already know the things we're doing, but truly, we're doing almost nothing. And if a student says that, that must be true.
It's frustrating.
---
Did YOU guys know I'd like to do a year of study abroad?
Well, I do.
And I probably won't.
Problem? moooooooooooooooooooney. Who said they don't rule the world? Because that was a total moron.
Years abroad cost thousands and thousands of dollars, and I'm not sure I can afford that.
We'll see.
I'd SO love to go in the USA for a year, I absolutely love it. I love it, love it, love it.
But I can't put too much hope on that, so I'll just think as if I wasn't going, so it'll be easier if I actually don't. ;D
Well, I wanted to say something else but apparently forgot it, so I guess it was nothing important.
xdarkwriter
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Hello :)
- Elena
- This blog is part of my uni coursework in which I have to link a specific subject of interest to the general shift to digital that has affected our society in recent years. Here I am going to discuss in depth various ways in which this shift has radically changed our youth in particular, and shaped them as what is often defined as a 'digital generation'. I hope to do a decent job! Cheers